Downer

I'm a downer...I don't know why, I'm not torturing myself but the word 'downer' mmg kerap muncul di kepala, bibir lately.  Am I a downer?  Seriously, I do feel like it these few days...huh.

Bila tgk how Hannah grows, hati kdg2 rasa sebak...and sometimes, I know that I'm being very strict terutama dalam hal belajar, mengaji dia.  Sometimes, nampak muka dia stress or maybe dia terasa burden dengan tanggungjawab as an eldest...expectations from me & her daddy.  Kadang2, kita ni as a mommy tak perasan sebab kita dok push, push...kadang2 lupa nak tarik balik sebab 'dok tolak' anak kita jauh sgt...nak sgt dia ke depan cepat...sedar tak sedar, dia dah pun ke depan & kita pulak ketinggalan.

Bila Hannah received an award as the Best Reader in Al Furqan, macam tak percaya.  Doa siang malam, hajat ibu dia yg seorang ni, dia tunaikan.  My 4 year old tunaikan my hajat...Alhamdulillah...Syukur Ya Allah...I am very proud of her...and so does my hubby. 

Next year, all my 3 princesses akan naik setahun lagi of age...Hannah will be turning 5 in March, Amani will be 4 in June & Humaira witll turn 1 in February...Masya Allah, cepatnya masa berlalu....

Sometimes, I do go over board bila nak mendidik anak-anak.  And I know after that I would feel regret.  Tapi at times, harapan kita mahukan yg terbaik semua untuk mereka, buatkan kita ni jd kejam!  Benda ni la buat I feel like a downer...