Hannah @ nursery....

Hello...It's been a week sice I started work after my confinement leave. Memang liat sangat to go back to work but apa nak buat, cari rezeki untuk family and bantu suami. Memang rasa lost bila hantar Hannah ke nursery in the morning. She was asleep, memang lena and rasa sayu hati je bila letak dia di tilam and meletakkan amanah kepada teacher (panggilan penjaga nursery) untuk jaga dia. Tambahan, last nite Hannah betul2 panicked kan me n my hubby bila dia sesak nafas. She catched flu and suddenly at 1am, dia sesak nafas. I was alone with her kat rumah and I called my hubby kat studio...he rushed home, I think the journey home from his studio @ Kelana Jaya only took him 20 mins...memang laju.

We took Hannah to the nearest polyclinic but they don't have the suction machine...so, we rushed to DEMC, Shah Alam...they put the nabiliser on her and around 10 mins, Hannah dah okey...she smiled after dah okay and as usually, craved for milk...she gave me a fright bila jadi macam tu and the thought of I'm gonna lose my daughter really crossed my mind...fuh, lega tgk dia senyum. Hannah...Hannah, jangan buat mommy& daddy risau lagi tau...

First day @ work and also without Hannah, memang tak best. I miss my daughter very much. I went to see her during lunch time but dia tidur. Petang around 6.30pm, I went n fetched her @ nursery, at first dia okey. Bila masu kereta and sitted her @ her car seat. Half of the journey home, she started to cry...bukan meraung tapi menangis sayu sangat, macam merajuk. She was merajuk and jauh hati becoz kami hantar ke nursery...I stopped tepi highway and pujuk dia, dukung dia, kissed her...about 15 mins jugak then I put her back at her seat. I hold her hands and pandang muka dia...I said to my baby girl," Mommy sayang Hannah sangat2, but I have to go to work, Daddy pun kena kerja, semuanya for Hannah, to give you a comfortable life If I've given a chance to choose between my work and you, I choose you, sayang. Tak perlu ada pilihan sebab mommy akan tetap choose Hannah. I love you so much and I hope you understand our situation..."and siapa kat baby tak faham...she did understand because she smiled at me, hold my hand tight and then slept with my one of my hand on her chest...I cried along the way home sebab sayu hati dengan situasi tadi. I'm touched by my daughter's reaction, really...she's smart, sensitive and the best part is...dia sayang mommy dia....adoi...sweetnya...